This is one of the reasons why I feel so bad being unable to pursue my dreams in film making

You. Yes you reading this. Hit the play button. And get shivers for the kilig factor. :’)

I’ve seen a lot of videos like this and I swear, it just makes me feel like I’m such a loser for not taking the supposed degree I loved. You know, I’ve been thinking all this time I did want the computer world —- the coding and designing part, the databases, the mastery of UMLs and system flow charts, the system.out.println that shows you “Hello World”, the complexity of things that makes a PC, a cellphone, a tablet, or generally, a gadget works. 

I must have ashamed myself when finally, after finishing my degree, to say that there were some parts of my course I did not want to ever take again in my career life would be an understatement. I know, I know. Perhaps everyone is asking me why I did not even bother to shift during my college days when I know for myself, almost ever since I had my feet in the grounds of college, I doubtingly love computer science. 

My hunger for understanding in art and creative writing was not fed to me by my course and it just so happens I found it somewhere myself, although really not as I wanted it to be found, but it helped me understand myself with what I do really love. And as semesters pass by like a blink of an eye, all I wanted was to finish my degree. Because that’s how I roll. I have this personality to finish everything I started, no matter how it would turn out.

And it all comes down to the thinking that, this was what was planned to happen to me. In some way, I believe, my being a computer scientist would let me appreciate what I really loved, just beyond deeper than what I ought to know and maybe, just an ounce more of complication. Lol. Like you know, I get to somehow edit videos during college, and whenever technical designs were needed (i.e. newspaper layout, video presentations, logo creation and editing, software design and interface) I get to express my passion for that thing I was not able to pursue. 

But then, perhaps its one of the biggest regret of my life. Why I chose computer engineering and computer science, as my 1st and 2nd choice, respectively, during UPCAT (where I obviously failed because of the quota thing) rather than, the Film and Audio Visual course. I am, honestly, always taken aback to that day in my room where I stare at that course in my UP Form whenever  I feel regretful. Those whats and ifs that flooded my mind, seriously, until now. What could have been?

Somewhere, somehow, I know I will get all the chances AGAIN in the world to go after it.

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Lol. Why am I even ranting this. Haha. There is one guy in my mind who, I know, was behind this very inspiring video. Because Im a fan and he’s one hell of a dude who needs praise for every seemingly perfect love story. It was different. I told myself, this wasn’t his style. And perhaps, the story telling part was just beyond his formal approach on videos. But surprise, surprise until you see the end. ♥

(Source: presidentlyawesome, via shutteredstories)