Moments of Realization in a Moment

Because I love how my new iPhone has become my new buddy, especially when I’m thinking! :D

I’m gonna share some of the thoughts I ponder which I pour into the notes (lamely, because I just want to blog)

• *That cadet who was appealing to me when he first came here is undeniably gay. I can tell and prove by the way he walk and talk and by the way his fingers flick in the air when gesturing. Its a shame it did not even occured to me that he was one of us. Now I am staring at him and thinking he could even be vainer than me. And I found myself in confusion why I liked him in the first place.

• *He was early today and we’re both in black! Gosh. Okaaay… I am actually wearing blue and my jacket is black but still!

• *I love how telecoms work! I wish I could stay here because its good that we are the ones doing this escalation thing and stuffs. And I love how I know stuffs when there is a network outage and when signals are weird and when your internet connection is intermittent. Ha. I am so gonna miss this.

• *Ack! We met in the hallway!!! GOSH MY HEART IS LEAPING OUT FROM MY CHEST NOW HE LOOKED AT ME FOR A SPLIT SECOND I KNOW BECAUSE I SAW IT!!! ahhhhh!!! *aw, my heart*

• *So I took lunch today at 3pm because of the huge amount of emails! But I’d prefer that than the graveyard thing with less stuff to do.

• *For a moment today I loved my bamboo looking legs. 

• *Most of the time, songs like A Thousand Years by Christina Perri makes my heart shatter, even though I know its actually the nuptial song of Bella and Edward. I am that affected to their wedding. Ha-ha.

• *Today I sat beside a legendary man of the country —- which, unfortunately, I’m very unaware of was Biazon.

• *There is one certain problem with myself I know I am half ashamed of. Probably that thing with the older guys. In any case though, I am thinking its weird for a girl who has always believed in the existence of Prince Charming —- not the King!

• *I am finding someone gorgeously beautiful in his jeans and shirt. I know, its normal. Duh.

• *But he will never know. He will never know how I admire seeing him there, with the burning cigarette twisted in his fingers, his eyes teary because of the smoke and that gaze that stunned me again, there, in the exit.

• *So I’m thinking again and I think about getting a bit of fat because honestly, take it from a skinny me, its not nice being, well, tall and skinny at the same time.

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I know, I talk a lot - with my brain.

I do a lot of brainfarts so to speak.